Lexi Hudson Crossdressing Interview

Summary: In this engaging episode of the Girl Life Podcast, host Maddie Taylor welcomes Lexi Hudson, a vibrant member of the LGBTQ+ community and an organizer of the widly popular Wildside event. Lexi shares her journey of self-discovery, from her childhood in Texas to her exploration of gender identity and dressing. She discusses the importance of community support, her experiences coming out, and her role in organizing events that foster connection and acceptance. Lexi also delves into her passion for fashion and makeup, emphasizing the joy and empowerment they bring to her life. The conversation culminates in a fun game of 'Two Truths and a Lie,' showcasing Lexi's playful spirit and connection to her friends.

 

Takeaways:

• Lexi Hudson is a passionate organizer of the Wild Side event.

• Community support is crucial for individuals exploring their gender identity.

• Lexi's journey of self-discovery began in childhood.

• Dressing and makeup are forms of personal expression for Lexi.

• The importance of having a supportive network in the LGBTQ+ community.

• Lexi emphasizes the joy of being true to oneself.

• Events like Wild Side create a sense of belonging.

• Fashion and beauty are significant aspects of Lexi's identity.

• Lexi's coming out experience was met with love and acceptance.

• The conversation highlights the shared experiences within the LGBTQ+ community.

 

Chapters:

00:00

Introduction to Lexi Hudson and Wild Side Event

04:41

Lexi's Background and Childhood

06:44

Exploring Identity and Relationships

12:49

The Journey of Self-Discovery

21:30

Creating a Persona and Community Connections

25:47

Navigating Relationships and Self-Discovery

32:48

Coming Out and Community Acceptance

37:47

The Art of Presentation and Vintage Aesthetics

43:26

The Journey of Coming Out to Friends

52:39

Sharing My Story Through Video

53:44

The Emotional Impact of Sharing Personal Stories

56:48

Navigating Relationships and Humor in Vulnerability

01:00:05

Understanding Gender Identity and Self-Expression

01:01:03

The Role of Makeup and Transformation in Identity

01:07:11

Contributions to the Community through Wild Side

01:12:19

Reflections on Personal Growth and Future Aspirations

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Lexi Hudson Interview Transcript

Maddie Taylor (00:02.038)

Welcome everyone to my girl life podcast. have a very exciting and interesting guest today. The one and only Lexi Hudson. Lexi has jumped into our community with both feet and a ton of positive energy, lifting up others and helping to organize one of the community's premier events wild side. So welcome to the show, Lexi.

Lexi Hudson (00:26.731)
Matti, thank you so much for having me. I'm very honored and privileged to get to be here today. Thank you.

Maddie Taylor (00:32.512)
Yeah, well, we're very excited. I know a lot of people want to hear from you. You're getting ready for a little mini event in New Orleans, correct?

Lexi Hudson (00:40.171)
Yes. it, yeah. so wild sites, typically in May, there was that one time we had it, in October. but yeah. So wild side proper, this in city Swarie takes place, middle of May each year. over the last several months, us organizers have had some conversation on wanting to do more.

Maddie Taylor (00:42.338)
You want to tell us a little bit about that?

Lexi Hudson (01:09.441)
to find a new sandbox to play in. so, you know, we looked at places all over the, all over the United States and New Orleans came up and so many different positive reviews and things to do and see down there.

Maddie Taylor (01:31.289)
and that's a nice playground to go play in.

Lexi Hudson (01:34.051)
Sure, hey sure yeah, you know cuz you know wild side as you know with TG Rocktober Diva Las Vegas, know all these big events You know take place in Las Vegas that town never closes down, right? so there's stuff to see and do 24 hours a day seven days a week and It's endless fun and excitement out there. So like, you know

Where in the United States is gonna be a close second to that? There's a lot of cool places to go, what, you know, sort of that same or similar vibe, atmosphere, party atmosphere, exactly. So,

Maddie Taylor (02:10.284)
party atmosphere and yep. Now do you plan to do this every year or is this going to be a kind of a one off?

Lexi Hudson (02:23.405)
This is our exploration year. And we had intended on kicking off a proper inaugural event, whatever. What we didn't realize at the time is that while we're there, they have a local event going on, which is second only to Mardi Gras, according to locals down there. It's called Crew of Brew. Crew of Boo, I'm sorry. It's...

It's their huge Halloween parade, festival, blah, blah. So everything sold out, booked up, blah, blah. When we had started back in the summer, talking to hotels and trying to capture group rates and figuring out what to go see and do. Swamp tours, haunted tours, a night out at a jazz club. Yeah, endless places to go eat. We're trying to capture all this stuff.

Maddie Taylor (03:13.878)
Yeah, a lot of choices.

Lexi Hudson (03:21.815)
and at the end of the day, there was the, the hotel miscommunicated with us and we thought we were going to have to completely cancel the event, for, for this year, which we sort of did. and I quietly stood up in the back and raised my hand and I was like, Hey, if we can still capture, you know, yeah, let's figure this out, you know,

Maddie Taylor (03:47.138)
Let's make this work somehow.

Lexi Hudson (03:51.751)
over the last couple years, being involved in finally making friends in the world. I've sort of had a thing where, like once a year, aside from Wild Side or another event, like just making a friends trip. Last year I was able to go to, yeah, more intimate, yeah. they, know, Nikki, Gina and Amy,

Maddie Taylor (04:11.724)
Yeah, something a little more smaller and more intimate.

Lexi Hudson (04:20.675)
kind of like that idea, so we pursued it and still secured, you know, a smaller batch of discounted rooms for our folks and, you know, scheduled what seems to be a bang up few days of a lot of variety of things to do. So we're very excited about that. Again, it's exploratory.

Maddie Taylor (04:24.246)
Nice.

Maddie Taylor (04:37.226)
Nice, well I can't wait to hear about the shenanigans and the stories.

Lexi Hudson (04:42.687)
Yeah, yeah, for sure. We're very excited about it.

Maddie Taylor (04:47.34)
So how about we get a little background on you Lexi, can you tell us where you grew up and a little bit about your childhood?

Lexi Hudson (04:53.923)
Yeah, so born and raised in Texas. So howdy y'all. Lived here my whole life.

Lexi Hudson (05:05.187)
I'm the youngest of three kids. Growing up was great. were a, well, they are a big sports family and I'm sort of the black sheep. I couldn't care less. So I grew up playing sports, you know, so I did play baseball. I don't any longer. I guess I was, I don't know, mid thirties.

Maddie Taylor (05:23.222)
But you do play baseball, right? Didn't you just say you play baseball?

Lexi Hudson (05:34.455)
So I'm 46 now. I was probably in my mid early thirties or whatever when I, when I finally hung it up. but I played, you know, all through my childhood, high school, got to play a couple of years, in college, small time, but you know, still having that extended opportunity was, was, you know, like I loved it. and then got to play as a

Maddie Taylor (05:49.142)
Nice, nice.

Maddie Taylor (05:57.078)
And so yeah, and so you currently live in Texas, right?

Lexi Hudson (06:00.769)
Yes, yeah, yeah, been here my whole life. So.

Maddie Taylor (06:05.846)
Great. Are you in a relationship?

Lexi Hudson (06:10.837)
No, been single for quite some time now.

Lexi Hudson (06:18.829)
then...

Maddie Taylor (06:19.618)
And were you ever married?

Lexi Hudson (06:21.911)
So I'm twice divorced. I have a daughter from my first marriage. She'll be 26 at the end of the year. After that, had a couple, we'll call them long-term relationships, two, three years-ish.

Maddie Taylor (06:34.359)
Nice.

Maddie Taylor (06:49.994)
And did the dressing play a part in any of those relationships?

Lexi Hudson (06:50.017)
and

Lexi Hudson (06:56.107)
So, the too long term, after my second divorce.

I had decided that moving forward in relationships that I could, that I would no longer hide this. I've known this forever. When we meet friends and start getting to know one another within our community, right? It seems like it's always the same story. You can tell me your story right now today and it would like,

Maddie Taylor (07:30.102)
Yep.

Hahaha

Lexi Hudson (07:34.603)
I would laugh at it because it's like, damn it, like you're taking the words out of my mouth. Exactly, you know, like it's, it's almost comical, you know, but like, you know, so knowing this since such a young age, probably, I don't know, 10 or 12, there was something, you know, I had no idea at the time I'd be walking around Las Vegas with a disco ball purse on my hip or anything of that, but I...

Maddie Taylor (07:37.386)
You could probably finish my sentence. You could probably finish some of my sentences, yeah.

Maddie Taylor (08:02.242)
you

Lexi Hudson (08:03.319)
But I knew there was something. knew there was, I knew that, always knew there was some type of draw, you know? And then...

Maddie Taylor (08:10.242)
Do you remember the first time you put any clothing on or that first experience?

Lexi Hudson (08:19.331)
So it was probably around that age, you know, 10, 12-ish, whatever.

Lexi Hudson (08:30.125)
there was an article of clothing laying around that I recognized from seeing somewhere, probably from a TV show or maybe a magazine at the time or something somewhere. And it was like, I don't know. And it it seemed natural to sort of dive into that thing. And it was like, this is, you know.

Maddie Taylor (08:47.202)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (09:00.183)
This is Nate.

Maddie Taylor (09:00.48)
I think it's fairly natural for young kids to try on mom's or sister's stuff in terms of playing around. And they may even do it in front of somebody because they're trying to be funny or whatever. I think that's fairly common. But for others like us, it's something a little different, right?

Lexi Hudson (09:12.813)
Sure.

Lexi Hudson (09:18.485)
Yeah.

Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (09:26.349)
Sure, sure.

Maddie Taylor (09:28.15)
Or maybe it triggers what was in there in the first place. And when a lot of other kids would do it, they could forget it. Maybe people like us did not forget it.

Lexi Hudson (09:34.143)
Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (09:40.118)
And naturally, you know, and it's infancy and ignorance.

Lexi Hudson (09:49.571)
I feel like I personally probably filed it back in my mind for years and years until whatever next opportunity came up to pursue maybe the next step.

Maddie Taylor (10:06.476)
So was it just that one little time you put something on and then you kind of tucked it away or you would dabble and then tuck it away or whatever and then eventually it kind of came out full bore.

Lexi Hudson (10:09.955)
you

Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (10:20.867)
would say in the middle of that. In the middle of that one time and dabbling, like occasionally dabbling. Just curiosity.

Maddie Taylor (10:30.614)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (10:37.826)
Do you remember the feeling when you first put on, and if you could remember the article of clothing, that'd be interesting. Remember that feeling? Do you have an adjective? Like for me, the first thing that came to mind was soothing. And I don't know why, it just soothing comes to mind.

Lexi Hudson (10:43.427)
you

Lexi Hudson (10:55.757)
Very good descriptive. Yeah, I would say the same for me. So it was, mm, a satiny sort of...

Teddy type garment, you know, it's soft, it feels nice, you know, it's, yeah, it's soothing, like you said, you know? And then, you know, then the angel on the other shoulder speaks up, you know, in my mind. know, yeah, yeah, and like for so long and like,

Maddie Taylor (11:11.445)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (11:18.166)
Yeah?

Maddie Taylor (11:29.122)
And guilt, yeah, there's automatic guilt immediately.

Lexi Hudson (11:38.539)
even into my married world, like having this filed back and even just thoughts of it was, what's wrong with me? What's wrong with me? And yeah, like you said, that guilt, guess, and just ignorance. The internet wasn't so popular back then, much less the...

Maddie Taylor (11:50.572)
Yep. Yep. Yep.

Lexi Hudson (12:07.523)
limitless information our community has out there and names and labels and categories. Yeah, I'm alone in the world and that's 100%, 100%. So, know, was, yeah, there was a lot of.

Maddie Taylor (12:12.21)
yeah, I mean, you thought you were the only one.

You thought you were the only one in the world that has ever done this.

Maddie Taylor (12:28.054)
Man, it would be so different. It would be so different as a 10 year old, 12 year old now doing it with the access to the information and the terminology. And cause when you put words to these things, it has meaning and it gives it some credibility. Yeah, it would be really interesting to go through it in this day and age.

Lexi Hudson (12:46.371)
Sure, Yeah, yeah.

And what I find so interesting in that, you know, like my story is your story is Kelly Perry's story is like, you know, so many of our friends now, now there are, you know, others that have different stories, but, you know, there's there's so much similarity. There's so much alignment. Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (13:13.504)
Most like the concentric, it's like concentric circles. It's like concentric circles. have everybody's got a little different story and they're different, but there's, there's overlap, with a lot of it.

Lexi Hudson (13:23.331)
Yeah, the details are just a little bit different, you know, so in in today's world of, you know, the ignorance out there of, you know, folks that that take the stance of, you all are just talking people into doing this. There's no one talking anyone into doing this, you know, it's it's, you know, visibility and and letting

Maddie Taylor (13:43.158)
Yeah. No, no.

Lexi Hudson (13:53.245)
younger me see, I'm not, there's one other person in the entire world that's like me, and there's another and another, you know, so there's.

Maddie Taylor (14:01.91)
You can't talk somebody into it and you can't talk somebody out of it. And I think, I just, you know, we talked about this with Heidi, the other day is, is purging. so did you ever go through purging? And I gave the definition in the last interview, I'll give it to everyone again. Purging is when you are dressing, to whatever level and you decide this is something you don't want to do.

Maybe you feel guilty, maybe you have a relationship and you don't want it to be part of the relationship and you say, I'm done and you throw everything away. And then eventually for most of us, you end up going right back to it and having to buy everything all over again and et cetera, et cetera. Did you go through the purging?

Lexi Hudson (14:49.091)
So in my very early days of venturing out, I was extremely limited in my fun stuff. So like one outfit, one pair of shoes, one fabulous $20 wig that I had bought at like Party City or something like that. My little pencil bag full of the most fabulous...

Maddie Taylor (15:09.12)
Yep, yep.

Lexi Hudson (15:17.313)
you know, $15 worth of makeup you could buy at the corner drugstore. Like, I had it all, right? You know, it was... I was well put together or so I thought. So, needless to say, I had very minimal stuff. Yeah, yeah. And there was the occasion, like once or maybe if it was a busy year...

Maddie Taylor (15:32.63)
You traveled, you traveled light. You traveled very light. One outfit, one purse.

Lexi Hudson (15:45.635)
twice a year that I was able to get out. was married at the time and the wife was taking a girls trip or something like that and I was like...

Maddie Taylor (15:48.928)
Wow. Okay.

Maddie Taylor (15:56.864)
Well, when you say you went out, where did you go?

Lexi Hudson (16:00.771)
So there's different parts of the city that I live in. One specific area, which is a large area, sort of considered the gayborhood, the LGBTQ community, which is bars, dance clubs, restaurants, shopping, know.

all of the things sort of within this.

Maddie Taylor (16:31.01)
Kind of like North Beach, North Beach in San Francisco.

Lexi Hudson (16:34.573)
There you go, yeah, sort of the bubble, right? And, know, yeah, there you go, there you go. So naturally, clearly I had thought of it all, right? So I took my first adventure down there and I'm in here getting ready. You know, the wife's like literally out of the country, so I'm safe.

Maddie Taylor (16:38.816)
Mm-hmm. West Hollywood.

Lexi Hudson (17:04.203)
Right? have a couple drinks, get ready, have the courage to walk out the bat, have some more. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. What? And I got to drive like half an hour to get there. Right? So like, I'm a little bit mindful of that, but I did pack, you know, a little, a little care package for when I got to the parking lot and I was literally sitting there, you know, listening to some music and convincing myself to just

Maddie Taylor (17:05.558)
Right?

Maddie Taylor (17:12.48)
Have some more drinks. Get ready.

Maddie Taylor (17:33.186)
trying to get the nerve up.

Lexi Hudson (17:33.251)
turn the car off. Yeah, open the door, step out the door, you know? So I finally get the nerve up. I walk into this place, which is still my go-to, it's sort of my cheers, you know? It's a dance club downstairs.

Maddie Taylor (17:52.044)
Yep. So what year, do you remember what year this was?

Lexi Hudson (17:57.691)
Uhhh... Twenty...

2010, 2011-ish? Yeah, 2010, let's call it. And...

Maddie Taylor (18:04.13)
Okay, roughly, yeah, okay.

Lexi Hudson (18:13.027)
walking in the front door, naturally it's a 21 and up, so I have to show my ID and I'm absolutely mortified because it was two different things going on and it didn't even occur to me the establishment that I was walking into, that that's a typical, like that's not, you know.

Maddie Taylor (18:25.504)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (18:34.262)
They've seen it a thousand times.

Lexi Hudson (18:36.563)
Exactly. they, you know, I'm, I'm mortified. They stamp my hand and pay no mind. And they're like, have a good time. And I walk in the door and here we go. Make a beeline for the bar. one of my favorite people on the planet, is that little bartender guy back there. So I'm making a beeline for this bar. Cause like, I need a stiff drink at this point.

Maddie Taylor (18:38.242)
The driver's license doesn't match, yeah.

Lexi Hudson (19:05.155)
It's like the world was in slow motion. All the lights are going people are dancing. There's a drag show going on over there and Sandy is standing behind the bar and it was like he was he was so stoic in this whole evening But like he sees me what you know walking towards the bar He takes that little square bar napkin and tosses it in the air you know and it spins and spins and spins and Lands on the bar about the time I'm bellying up to it

And he's like, hey doll, what's your name and what'll it be? And I'm like, gosh dang it. Well, I thought I had thought of it all, right? Because I always think of all of it. I didn't have a name. This is my first time out in the world and I had thought of everything. I had thought if it...

Maddie Taylor (19:42.466)
I'm home. I'm home.

Maddie Taylor (19:55.01)
How funny.

Lexi Hudson (20:01.493)
If I happen to have three flat tires on the way home, throw a pair of shoes in the trunk so I have to walk around and try to hitch a ride or climb in a tow truck and heels that are clearly gonna destroy my feet. I got tennis shoes in the trunk. The makeup, the $20 wig, I thought of every single thing, right? Backup plans, backup to the backup. But I didn't have a freaking name.

And I'm like, and he's like, it's okay sweetie, it happens all the time. What do you want to drink? And like, he was so comforting in that moment. And I remind him of that time forever ago now, every time I see him, know, very sweet guy. He's such a sweet guy. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. He's been there and he was there years before that. But yeah.

Maddie Taylor (20:44.16)
and he's still there.

Maddie Taylor (20:49.632)
Hey Lexi, your voice kind of changed. There you go. Whatever you did. That's all right. So he was the same guy, he works there still? my.

Lexi Hudson (20:54.242)
there we go. Sorry. Yeah.

Same guy, yeah, he's been there for years and years. And I'll climb up over the bar to hug his neck every time I see him. He's a good man. So...

Maddie Taylor (21:05.442)
It's amazing.

Maddie Taylor (21:13.746)
What a great ally. What a great security blanket, if you will. You probably don't need it now. You don't need it now, but you definitely needed it. You never needed it then. So you didn't even have a name. So that's a great question. How did you come up with your name and did you do it right there on the spot or did you, or did, your name changed?

Lexi Hudson (21:17.419)
Yeah, yeah.

Lexi Hudson (21:28.355)
So in that mo

So in that moment, my wheels start turning. Crap, I'm going to need a name, And at the time, there was a local newscaster named Megan Henderson, and she was beautiful. know, morning newscaster or whatever. Beautiful smile, pretty eyes, know, big, flowy hair, just, you know, just a beautiful woman. And I had decided in that moment, I'm going to be

Megan Henderson. And so that was me. then, know, fast forward and, and, you know, maybe getting out one time a year or something like that, just, you know, so minimal. I didn't get out. And I had thought, you know, my, my twin brother, if you will, had social media and it occurred to me.

Maddie Taylor (22:29.506)
You

Lexi Hudson (22:34.711)
maybe I can meet people online like me, chat with people and figure things out and get inspired and like, who do I wanna be? What do I want my style to be? All of the questions, right? So Megan creates a MySpace back when that was around and ultimately a Facebook.

Maddie Taylor (22:59.692)
Yep.

Lexi Hudson (23:03.715)
page or profile or whatever. And yeah, so now I'm alive and well on social media.

Maddie Taylor (23:11.848)
That was a game changer for me. Facebook was a game changer, as well as the events, but the Facebook was a way to make a lot of friends and feel like part of the community. And then when you did go to the events, you felt like you already had friends because you met them online and communicated with them and shared shared pictures for the year.

Lexi Hudson (23:30.239)
You

Lexi Hudson (23:36.183)
Sure, sure, yeah. And I've really fallen into that. It's such a way to make new connections, stay connected with old friends that I've met along my way. It's...

Maddie Taylor (23:47.254)
Yes.

because a lot of them we only see once a year.

Lexi Hudson (23:52.707)
for sure. Yeah. A friend of mine that I met at Wild Side in 19, Katrina Roberts lives in London. I've not seen her since May of 2019. We still stay connected. When we were having conversation, you know, back then at Wild Side, I didn't know how to...

Maddie Taylor (24:10.582)
Yeah, I have those.

Lexi Hudson (24:20.479)
referred to myself and you know about different topics because you know was it was it a lex topic or was it a was it a hymn topic and and i i didn't know how to differentiate the two and she was like darling that's your twin brother and it was like a light bulb came on and it's like now i know how to talk about him you know because because i love him and he's

very real and not going away ever and like it's such a huge piece of all of my world and but there are specifics that that refer to him only you know and how do i talk about that

Maddie Taylor (25:00.194)
Well, think, yeah, I think a lot of us refer to our girl persona in third person or vice versa. And it's just easier that way. know my sister, when I first told her and I showed her Facebook and, know, Maddie had a name and a last name and she was supportive and has been very supportive. But in the beginning, she's like,

Lexi Hudson (25:09.783)
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (25:23.619)
Thank

Maddie Taylor (25:27.01)
It's like you've created a whole new person. And I said, no, no, no. I, know who I am when I wake up in the morning, but, but, you know, she was part partly right. And every time I referred to Maddie and third person, always think about her because you're referring to another person, but it's just easier. A lot of times to just, when I say Maddie, we know what, we know what I'm talking about. I don't have to say when I'm dressing, when I'm cross-dressing, I just say, you know, Maddie had a great weekend.

Lexi Hudson (25:32.227)
Yeah

Lexi Hudson (25:48.643)
Yeah, Yeah, the room knows what lane you're in when you're speaking. Yeah, absolutely. That makes a lot of sense. Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (26:01.056)
Yeah, exactly. But let me ask you, did you ever get caught dressing by a wife or girlfriend or somebody that didn't know?

Lexi Hudson (26:10.248)
Lexi Hudson (26:15.903)
Not that I recall. I don't think. Yeah, yeah. Nothing's coming to mind. I can appreciate this. I can appreciate this. Not that I recall though. Yeah, yeah. So going back.

Maddie Taylor (26:18.797)
you would recall.

you would recall.

Maddie Taylor (26:28.31)
Lucky... Lucky... Lucky you.

Maddie Taylor (26:36.608)
Were there any gaps? I'm sorry, go ahead.

Lexi Hudson (26:42.531)
going back just a touch and know Lexi coming to fruition and letting people know so after the second divorce I decided you know moving forward in relationships I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I can't keep this you know from my significant other you know so I had those couple you know long-term relationships

and the first one, well, both of them, they sort of followed a similar timeline. We're about a year into our respective relationships and like it's really weighing on me and.

what better time or better opportunity to be like, hey, you know what would be really fun? This time of year, Halloween. So, you know, like, hey, you know would be really fun? And some, you know, girly costume or something like that. like, I to this day love both of these girls. They are excellent human beings and...

Maddie Taylor (27:58.827)
that's nice.

Lexi Hudson (28:00.843)
Yeah, we not, know, neither of them were just gonna work out when that opportunity presented itself. But...

Maddie Taylor (28:12.288)
Because of the dressing or because of other things, the dressing really wasn't the deal breaker.

Lexi Hudson (28:17.571)
Dressing was not a deal breaker. It did serve a piece. And this is before I had any friends in the world steal. So I didn't know anything. naturally, they had a lot of questions, as did I. And I still do. Yeah. But I just like I had literally zero community. Lexi didn't have a single friend in the world.

Maddie Taylor (28:35.507)
As did you, I'm sure, yeah.

Lexi Hudson (28:47.483)
And like going into both of those, hey, this is just an idea and both of them being so engaged in it and like, my God, yes, this will be so fun. We'll get you an outfit. I'll do your makeup for you. You're gonna need a name. And I'm thinking to myself.

I already have a name, but I can't tell you that because I gotta be cool with this. know, so like we get into it and boom, we go out and we have a bang up time, you know, Halloween. was.

Maddie Taylor (29:26.678)
This is Halloween, okay.

Lexi Hudson (29:29.183)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, this is Halloween, this is quote unquote my first time out in the world. And I'm just banging it up, having a blast, because what they...

Maddie Taylor (29:36.96)
Now, is she thinking this is a one-time thing and we're just gonna have a blast and not really knowing what's coming?

Lexi Hudson (29:41.464)
Hmm

I think... Yeah. Thinking back...

Maddie Taylor (29:49.25)
She thinks it's raining and there's a hurricane coming.

Lexi Hudson (29:54.659)
Yeah, yeah. And then it's like a couple weekends later and it was like, hey, that was kind of fun. You you think maybe we could like go have like a regular Friday night out or something. Yeah, that would be like, yeah, we had a blast and we danced and met all these people and da da da and like, hell yeah, let's do it again. So then we would do that. And then like, you know, I'm not a cold weather person. So, you know, once the spring rolls around, hey, it's kind of getting nice out. You think maybe, you know, and then like,

So I'm sitting in the chair, right?

Maddie Taylor (30:25.558)
Was she thinking at this point, what's going on here? This doesn't seem like it's just a one-off thing.

Lexi Hudson (30:30.497)
Well.

And

Lexi Hudson (30:38.179)
I'm getting more, I'm getting bold in my.

and want to and stuff, but I'm also wanting to tell them, you know, to share with them. I just don't quite have the words to do it, you know, then. So like when I'm sitting there in the chair and they're doing my eyes and I'm like, hey, can you just exaggerate my cat eye a little bit more? Like, you know, bring it back a little bit.

Maddie Taylor (30:57.087)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (31:02.78)
I hear you. I think we can all relate.

Lexi Hudson (31:15.777)
and they put the cap on that pin and they take a step back and look at me with that head sort of cocked sideways like, wait a minute. You know, like, you know too much, you know, you know.

Maddie Taylor (31:27.286)
You're too well versed in this and you walk way too well in heels.

Lexi Hudson (31:29.879)
Yeah. Yeah. Like, and like, hey, I saw these shoes and and like, they're really cute. And I think you would like them. And it's like, yeah, I wear women's 10. But but but that's a peep toe. And I know that I wear a nine and a half and nine and a half or are hard to come by and women's shoes. So that like, and they're like, wait, what?

Maddie Taylor (31:52.354)
you

Lexi Hudson (31:57.635)
So like I'm... So yeah, so like we arrived at a certain point of, you know, me quietly revealing some things and then, you know, sort of pieces together. And they're like, so this is a thing, isn't it? Yeah, this is the thing. OK, well, now we're moving into a new realm of...

Maddie Taylor (31:58.306)
Okay, so how did you finally tell her? How did you finally, did you finally just let it all out?

Lexi Hudson (32:26.029)
conversation and all this stuff and you know, like there's the handful of questions that everybody always asks, right? And it's like, so you're gay or yeah, A number one is so you're gay, right? And like, they start, know, cis girls start feeling self-confident.

Maddie Taylor (32:38.336)
Are you gay?

Maddie Taylor (32:44.96)
Right.

Lexi Hudson (32:54.383)
self-conscious, I'm sorry, yeah, and inadequate. I'm not making you happy. Clearly, I'm the problem. No, that's not it at all. This is totally outside of you. This was around decades before you were even here. But talking through that is a big piece. What restroom do you go to?

Maddie Taylor (32:56.364)
Self-conscious, yeah.

Lexi Hudson (33:22.679)
they're in a head space of, clearly you plan on having all of the surgeries probably tomorrow. Some people, yes, not all of us. And like that's something I've learned and appreciated and figured out about myself along the way. I'm very happy in the...

Maddie Taylor (33:29.792)
Right.

Maddie Taylor (33:42.946)
Well speaking of that, do you plan on transitioning in any way, or form?

Lexi Hudson (33:49.987)
Right now, today, no. And not in the foreseeable future. just, you know...

I've gained a lot of confidence in the little corner of our community that I get to occupy and I'm really basking in it. I love it. And the other side of that is the welcome and acceptance that I've received being who I am within this community. It's been...

Maddie Taylor (34:01.346)
Well, do you-

Lexi Hudson (34:31.265)
You know, it's been very moving, very, it's put a lot of wind in my sails that, you know, being an event or being, you know, somewhere out with friends or whatever, maybe I've traveled somewhere and it's one of those little friend trips or something like that. And no matter if it's my Betty bangs and silly little hat that walks into the room or the

the twin brother in blue jeans and some Chuck Taylors that strolls into the room. My friends always see Lexi walking in the room. Yeah, yeah, and I like, I never anticipated that. Yeah, yeah, I never anticipated that.

Maddie Taylor (35:07.926)
They don't care. They don't care. And I have friends in the same way. don't really care. no, it's something, it's a blessing and you never could have guessed it. And if I would have guessed it, I would have said I'd be a pariah. I'd be shunned. If I ever went to a regular establishment, mainstream establishment, I'd be embarrassed thoroughly. And so it's kind of an evolution.

Lexi Hudson (35:28.575)
sure.

Maddie Taylor (35:37.468)
and it takes on a life of its own. If you, if you wish to take that step forward versus backwards. And, I, gotta tell you, I had a, I have a great life. love my boy life. have amazing friends, lifelong friends. And, but I've never felt so much love and had so many deep friendships, with Maddie than I've ever had in boy mode. And it's just, I feel like I was walking around life with a box of eight crayons.

and somebody handed me a box of 32.

Lexi Hudson (36:07.971)
Yeah, yeah, I absolutely concur and have experienced exactly what you just said. And it's been so uplifting and encouraging. I feel like across all of my life, like it's brought so much peace and joy into my soul. You know, it's been so special.

Maddie Taylor (36:34.722)
Well, I think unless you have gender dysphoria, I don't know that there's an incentive to go through transition other than, I know you're a perfectionist and my next question is gonna relate to that, is you want to perfect the presentation and you want to feel like the ultimate girl. And some of the transition can...

Lexi Hudson (36:58.531)
.

Maddie Taylor (37:03.806)
help that say top surgery or whatever, or some hormones to soften. But that's, think that's more from you wanting to perfect the presentation than having gender dysphoria. have no desire to transition. It my age, I'm not going to mess with my hormones, nor would I really want to. I'm happy where I'm at, but it sounds like you're in that same spot and, you don't really need to probably take it further.

Lexi Hudson (37:05.443)
Sure. Sure.

Maddie Taylor (37:32.896)
Speaking of perfection, so I wanted to get to this topic. Tell us about your fascination with calendar girls and these various costumes and outfits that you wear because they're just absolutely amazing. Can you elaborate on the calendar thing and your outfits?

Lexi Hudson (37:33.858)
and

Lexi Hudson (37:42.499)
Thank

Lexi Hudson (37:47.298)
Ha!

Lexi Hudson (37:51.555)
First off, I deeply appreciate that. That's a very high compliment and I...

Lexi Hudson (38:07.105)
when I'm coming up with a concept of an outfit or even, know, because I consider most of what I'm rolling out in just outfits and stuff. Now there are definitely, you know, costumes out there. You know, the Wonder Woman from Halloween last year. Yeah, well, and yeah, but anything like I...

Maddie Taylor (38:27.042)
Yeah, they're more outfits than costumes. That was really not the right word.

Lexi Hudson (38:36.343)
really dive into, like even if I'm just rolling out for a Thursday night here in town at the bar, I want it to be completely put together top to bottom. No stone left unturned, every detail mastered. So I have this enamorment of vintage stuff.

vintage people, you know, the old days, you know? Yeah. And I don't know where that...

Maddie Taylor (39:06.624)
Yes, I want to know more about that.

Where did that start? How did you get so interested in that?

Lexi Hudson (39:17.965)
probably like high school age, really college age, know, whatever, know, thinking back and, you know, like looking at things in the modern world that have just gotten so relaxed where, you you go back to, you know, like even the 1920s, know, prohibition or, you know, during the Great Depression and through that, and then, you know,

coming back into the 40s and World War II era and then Rosie the Riveter, Bomber Girls, all this stuff, pinups into the 50s, all this stuff. Everybody was so, even men were full length coat, always wearing a suit, cute little top hat kick to the side.

Like everyone was to the nines constantly, you know. They were so polished and put together, you know. And like, I love that aesthetic, that effort. know, and...

Maddie Taylor (40:18.05)
Polished, they were polished and put together, yeah.

Maddie Taylor (40:30.134)
Did you love that as a boy, just admiring that? And I think you like older cars too. Don't you like kind of the older automobiles type thing?

Lexi Hudson (40:39.007)
I... I...

I do, I do. We'll get to... Yeah, for sure. So like as a kid, like looking back on, you know, photos of my parents, like, you know, when they graduated high school, you know, in the late sixties or whatever, and moms, you know, swept hair and all of this stuff. It's like, that's you? Like you're... And not that she wasn't, you know, at the time, but like looking back at that picture, it's like,

Maddie Taylor (40:44.544)
Yeah, I think that dovetails into the whole thing.

Maddie Taylor (41:09.058)
You

Lexi Hudson (41:12.547)
You're so beautiful, you know? And then like looking at my grandmother's photos, my grandparents and seeing my grandfather in his US Army suit, you know? It was, yeah, it's like, whether him or her, they were just so beautiful, you know? My dad's parents, so my dad's family is from Mexico.

Maddie Taylor (41:24.074)
Yeah, now that you mention that, can relate to that to my parents and grandparents.

Maddie Taylor (41:33.354)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (41:40.835)
My dad was 10 when they immigrated to the United States. Thank you.

Maddie Taylor (41:43.776)
That's where you get that beautiful skin.

I have to spray 10 every week to even come anywhere close to that.

Lexi Hudson (41:52.003)
Yeah, it's yeah, I appreciate that. So yeah, but like, you know, even them and their, you know, poor family from Mexico and, you know, came to the United States, my grandfather was was a preacher, you know, and they moved to West Texas to come to the United States for opportunity and seeking that.

Opening churches, know, spreading my word.

Maddie Taylor (42:23.178)
You think your grandfather would turn over in his grave if he met Lexi?

Ha

Lexi Hudson (42:29.027)
I think of that often and I don't know. I hope not. I hope they would just be patient enough with me to hear me out. You know what I mean? Yeah, I just, I wish that sometimes.

Maddie Taylor (42:42.603)
Right.

Maddie Taylor (42:48.322)
Well, speaking of that, who have you come out to? Friends, family, other than people in our community, anybody in your past world? Well, your current world, sorry.

Lexi Hudson (42:53.901)
Yeah

Lexi Hudson (42:58.468)
So clearly the two... Yeah, clearly the two ex-girlfriends, which was what were received by them. It was...

Lexi Hudson (43:14.659)
May of 2019, I got to go to Wild Side for the very first time. I knew literally zero people when I got there. Very quickly, I started making friends and being accepted. And like, I was so mind blown. had, you know, this was unbelievable. I have a friend.

Maddie Taylor (43:32.182)
Hey, hey, Lexi, what prompted you to go to that first wild side?

Lexi Hudson (43:41.077)
It was, as Bob Ross, the artist painter would put it, it was a happy little accident. So I'm scrolling through this, know, through my Facebook feed or whatever. And I have a friend named Maddie Taylor that had posted this image of

Maddie Taylor (44:08.215)
I know her.

Lexi Hudson (44:09.695)
of all of these girls standing beautifully dressed like it was prom night in front of the sign in Las Vegas. And it instantly blew my mind. so we were, you and I were only friends online. Naturally, we hadn't met yet, but we're online friends. And I shot you a message and I was like, hey, what the hell is that? And...

Maddie Taylor (44:28.119)
Right?

Maddie Taylor (44:36.802)
Hahaha

Lexi Hudson (44:37.315)
We didn't get a chance to connect, but now I know something exists out there in the world. So I go down all these rabbit holes or whatever, and I'm searching events in Vegas and blah, blah, blah, blah. And I find Wild Side and I can't remember my next connection. I think I'd either reached out to Nikki Belange or Amy Wiltshire.

other organizers of Wildside and got connected, got registered, know, boom, I'm going to Wildside in May of 2019, you know? And I get there and it was such a wonderful experience and, you know, got to meet so many people. Yeah, yeah. Fast forward, you know, to October of 2019, TG Rocktober's coming up.

Maddie Taylor (45:23.402)
It's a game changer for a lot.

Lexi Hudson (45:33.505)
Wait a second, another event similar to this, just a few months later, I go to that and it was equally wonderful. But now I had some friends, some people I actually knew and had stayed in touch with over the last several months. So.

Maddie Taylor (45:50.304)
And that changes everything.

Lexi Hudson (45:53.651)
like I was in search of one friend in the whole wide world and I found some, you know? And it's been incredible. Naturally with our events, there's pictures and all this stuff and all these late nights, early mornings, fun events, know, pool parties, sitting on bar tops, dancing in a club, photo shoots.

Maddie Taylor (45:59.682)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (46:16.756)
It's such an amazing bonding, such an amazing bonding experience, right?

Lexi Hudson (46:21.763)
Yeah, there's all of these things and they're all getting captured. like, I'm building up, you know, all of these stories and stuff that my twin brother didn't get to speak about in his world, you know? So I was, I found this drive, this artistic sort of drive or whatever. And I still don't even have the words to

to really explain what all of this means to me and all of you mean to me in this community. But I'm a very visual person. So I took all of these pictures and all of these memories and all these experiences and all of these things I had captured and I built a video, like a slideshow to music and all of this stuff. And my intent with that was,

I don't know if I consider it a coming out video or a coming out presentation or whatever, but essentially that's what it is, right? I'm not building this to not show people.

Maddie Taylor (47:32.962)
I was going to say, did you envision, did you fantasize about, this is what I can show people when I come out because it's hard to explain how much love and camaraderie and this amazing experience. It's hard to explain in words.

Lexi Hudson (47:44.159)
Yeah, yeah, sure. And if I'm sitting there with a buddy of mine in a bar and I'm trying to explain this, like I don't have the words colorful enough to explain what it's like to be at TGR. And like all the fun and crazy stuff that goes on during that or Wild Side or a casual trip with friends to go see.

Maddie Taylor (48:03.5)
Right.

Lexi Hudson (48:10.923)
Metallica and Las Vegas, know, like all of these things. But what paints a better picture is pictures, images with music, all this stuff. To me, it really tells a story. Yeah, with my friends living in a moment, right?

Maddie Taylor (48:21.814)
with your friends.

Maddie Taylor (48:27.414)
I'm not doing this in the dark and it's not something dirty and I'm ashamed of, I'm actually proud of it. I'm loud and proud. These are my friends. This is an amazing experience.

Lexi Hudson (48:30.627)
yeah.

Lexi Hudson (48:35.693)
I'm living out loud, I'm living out loud. Yeah, for sure. So like to me, the best way to capture that and be able to tell that story was through a video of sorts.

Maddie Taylor (48:50.967)
So you have come out to guy friends or friends.

Lexi Hudson (48:55.139)
Yes, yes. So I finished that video probably January of 2020, right? Right before the wheels fell off and everything. And then, like, I got it saved in my computer and it's... sorry. You there? You there? Okay.

Maddie Taylor (49:10.05)
Your voice changed again, Lexi. Lexi? Your voice changed again. Yeah, so I'll just say that over. So you have come out to some friends and some people that you know in boy mode.

Lexi Hudson (49:23.827)
Yes, so I had built the video probably in, it was completed by January of 2020, right before the wheels fell off of everything. So I've got it sitting here, sitting on go, right? I'm waiting for that moment. And it was towards the end of summer, and one of my best friends that

Maddie Taylor (49:37.409)
Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (49:52.867)
I've grown up in my work with. He and his wife live just on the other side of town and at the time, their high school age son. And he had called me up one afternoon and he's like, hey, we're getting in the pool tonight and like cooking dinner, like come over, we'll hop in the pool and family time, have dinner and have some drinks and whatever. Cool.

So I throw my computer in the back seat of the car and I drive over there and we had a great time, know, getting pool, enjoy some sun, listening to music, having some drinks, whatever. We all go in and three adults are in there, you know, laughing, joking, cutting up, cooking dinner and stuff. All four of us, you know, the three of us and their son, you know, sit down and have a nice dinner, finish. And we just continue having great conversation for probably an hour after we're done eating. And then we get up, we all wash dishes together and then.

you know, the kid goes upstairs and hops on a video game or, you know, whatever kids do nowadays. And three of us are just sitting around or whatever in the living room. And like, it's been weighing on me since, you know, he called me that afternoon that like, maybe today's the day.

Maddie Taylor (50:57.922)
Uh-huh.

Maddie Taylor (51:06.102)
Well, I was going to ask you, did you, did you fantasize about, did you have that conversation in your head several times and you fantasized about who you're going to tell and how you're going to tell them and then you didn't, you didn't have the nerve to do it this time, but you're going to do it next time.

Lexi Hudson (51:12.131)
yes.

Yes.

Yes, and I'd had an inkling for a long time if I was gonna tell anybody ever, he was definitely gonna be one of the first. So, and like it's so funny, like we've been such good friends for 25 years now. And like he's such a meathead and such a...

a doodly dude and whatever. But yeah, yeah, just grit and salt and whatever. I was 50-50 on this as we're sitting in the living room and I was like, hey, can I show y'all something? And of course, I'm sitting on one couch and they're sitting, he's got his arm.

Maddie Taylor (51:50.112)
A dudes dude.

Maddie Taylor (51:58.146)
So how did it go? How did it go?

Lexi Hudson (52:17.731)
you know, his petite little former ballerina wife, you know, little gal. And he's like, yeah, sure, you know, what you got? And I was like, get your TV set up. my God, yeah. And I'm 50-50. Like this guy is either about to bury me or like, you know, hold me up like the lion story, you know? So like I'm real 50-50 on how this is gonna pan out.

Maddie Taylor (52:27.232)
And your heart, your heart is pounding. Your heart is pounding.

Maddie Taylor (52:37.053)
Yeah

Hahaha!

Lexi Hudson (52:45.505)
So I was like, get your TV set up. I gotta go get a computer real quick. So I run off the car, know, plug it all in. And of course he's like, what the F blah, blah, blah, you know, whatever. And you know, we all sit down and I hit that play button just real quick on the video. It's like 40 minutes long. Half of it's my twin brother and you know, from a baby up until, you know, current day photos and life adventures and.

you know, my daughter, this guy and his wife again.

Maddie Taylor (53:20.695)
you had Boyla. Okay, so you had Boyla. It was kind of your life story a little bit, not just about Lexi.

Lexi Hudson (53:28.579)
It's a story of all of my life, which, know, the both of them have been friends for so long. They are both in the video, you know? So, you know, like a picture pops up and he's like, yeah, I remember that, you know, blah, blah, blah. You know, it's like, yeah, yeah. I'm telling you something. There's a lot of lead up right here.

Maddie Taylor (53:32.256)
The evolution. that's awesome.

Maddie Taylor (53:39.412)
Okay, okay.

Maddie Taylor (53:49.922)
geez, okay.

Lexi Hudson (53:52.811)
Yeah, so then the midway point comes and I've got some some text slides that sort of pop up, you know, randomly telling a story along the way. And then it breaks into.

Lexi Hudson (54:13.709)
to my world and the second my first picture popped up on that screen, she bounded off of that couch and came over and squeezed me as tight as she could with both arms, whispering.

Maddie Taylor (54:34.22)
So she knew immediately what that was. You didn't even have to explain that picture.

Lexi Hudson (54:38.499)
Not a second of that picture being on that screen went by that both of them didn't completely understand what was going on in that moment. And she's about squeezing my soul out, whispering in my ear at least a dozen times, we love you, we love all of you. And I have rivers pouring out

Maddie Taylor (54:53.423)
that's awesome.

Maddie Taylor (55:03.052)
Good for you.

Maddie Taylor (55:09.405)
Aww.

Lexi Hudson (55:11.107)
and she's squeezing me tight. And I'm waiting for him to come at me with a cast iron skillet to beat me senseless or whatever. And I glance over at him. He'd gone from laying back on the couch, having his feet kicked up on the table to his feet or planted firmly on the ground, fingers interlocked and elbows on his knees, completely...

engaged in that TV screen. I had that man's completely undivided attention in about two seconds. And he was totally captured in that moment.

Maddie Taylor (55:53.174)
And what were his first words?

Lexi Hudson (55:55.587)
So Lexi's piece of the video and you know over the last few years and well and at the time remember it had only been about a year that I'd you know found and discovered and gone to Wild Side and experienced and then TG Rocktober you know that week you know engulfed a big piece of

of Lexi's 20 minutes of the film. Kelly and I, prior to TGR, got to go to Long Beach in San Diego and spent a few days out there and she's introduced me to people and all this stuff. like, I'm living so much life in a little bit less than a year and now it's on this video that's being shown to them. So.

Lexi Hudson (56:53.955)
I didn't even have a whole lot of words. I'm still calculating. I know I'm in a good place. I know I'm in a happy place. And I know I have a lot of things to tell, but I didn't really know what to say in that moment. And he's cackling during the first half of the video, because it's fun and funny and make him fun of my twin brother and all that stuff. But his lips were sealed during the entirety of the second piece of it.

Maddie Taylor (57:17.825)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (57:23.649)
So then it concludes and in our world, mine and his professional world and how we've grown up across all of our life together, a healthy degree of banter and agitation and shit talking.

you know, it is a positive thing, you know. So we sit there for a second.

Maddie Taylor (57:59.266)
Well, it's funny you say that because I told, I told my friends, please ask questions. And, you know, my friends, it's usually sense of humor is a big part of our relationship and the banter. said, make jokes about it. I obviously not mean jokes, just the same kind of busting your chops that you would do. Anyway, that tells me you're comfortable with it and you accept it. Right. Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (58:13.473)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (58:17.059)
Break the ice. Yeah, yeah, break the ice here. Yeah, tear it off like a bandaid. Let's, yeah, like you said, not cruel or demeaning or anything, but yeah, like, here we go, let me have it. So, after the video concluded, he kicks his feet back up on the table and he's like, well.

Maddie Taylor (58:32.8)
No.

Lexi Hudson (58:45.731)
that sorta explains why your home looks like a damn magazine all the time. And of course, like we all laugh and whatever. And then, you know, he leads into, you know, a collective conversation. He's like, well, I need a drink. I think we all need a drink right now. So let's go mix up a drink. So the three of us, you know, like a six-year-old soccer mob, you know.

Maddie Taylor (59:04.67)
Hahaha

Lexi Hudson (59:13.257)
move to the kitchen or whatever and we're pouring drinks and like hear the questions come and I'm prepared for the questions which you know going back to what we talked about earlier you know the handful of questions that everybody always asks I acknowledged and answered those during the video you know number one no I'm not gay you know blah blah blah blah but but

Maddie Taylor (59:15.446)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (59:37.62)
You knew what was coming, yeah, so you got ahead of it.

Lexi Hudson (59:39.457)
Yeah, sort of working through that and anticipated that. And it's absolutely fair. These people, my friends there have no idea what it's like inside of our brains, your brain, my brain. And...

Maddie Taylor (59:56.246)
know. And by the way, to that point, I, I, I would never come out to somebody, most of the people have come out to family wise, and old friends, it's been in pictures, they've not met Maddie. Now, my current friends, who are not in our community, they they didn't see Maddie every week. But the one thing I would do is when I

Lexi Hudson (01:00:06.456)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (01:00:10.679)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (01:00:18.434)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (01:00:22.23)
would tell somebody, you know, they probably were married or have a girlfriend or whatever. It's kind of like when you're a parent, you tell your kids, look, look, don't, don't have sex. You're too young to have sex. But if you do use a condom, right? You're talking at it besides your mouth. So I would say, please don't share this with anybody. But if you do, please show them this picture because I do not want them to picture.

Lexi Hudson (01:00:27.715)
Sure.

Lexi Hudson (01:00:35.383)
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sure.

Lexi Hudson (01:00:47.427)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (01:00:51.326)
I do it in a dress and it's just my vanity. just, I'm like, if you're going to tell them, show them the picture, please. Does that make sense?

Lexi Hudson (01:00:53.515)
Yes, yeah.

Yeah, Yeah, yeah, absolutely. Absolutely. And, you know, especially in... Go ahead.

Maddie Taylor (01:01:03.458)
We'll actually.

Maddie Taylor (01:01:09.002)
I was just going to ask you, I didn't want to interrupt, but do you know why you dress? Have you really psychoanalyzed that? And if you have, do you have any theories?

Lexi Hudson (01:01:18.211)
Ahem.

Lexi Hudson (01:01:22.243)
I don't, know, personality wise or whatever, know, like as I talked about earlier, younger years, you know, growing up.

Lexi Hudson (01:01:40.579)
I it was, I felt it was wrong or something was wrong with me. And finally having friends in the world and becoming myself and met so much acceptance even outside of our community.

going to places, doing things, sitting in a bar by myself in a mainstream type setting or whatever, and just talking with human beings.

I haven't met any resistance or whatever. and that's been...

That's put a lot of wind in my sails, given me a lot of confidence and a part of...

Maddie Taylor (01:02:36.412)
Maybe that helps you think I don't really need to know why this is. It's not a problem, it's a plus.

Lexi Hudson (01:02:43.349)
Yeah, yeah, I think why, I don't know this is why that I do it, but.

Lexi Hudson (01:02:54.187)
I love beauty, love grace, love femininity, know, and women that are, that's...

Lexi Hudson (01:03:07.883)
some of the top traits that I just adore about women.

Maddie Taylor (01:03:16.108)
So maybe you can identify with this. I talked about, I wrote a blog article about autogynephilia. I know it's a controversial theory. I don't believe in all of the theory, but I do identify with the desiring oneself as a woman or having it being sexually aroused when you dress, is really was the main motivator when I first started then of course.

It took on a life of its own and you have friends and that becomes much less of a, of a driver. but I discovered the term gender envy. Wasn't really familiar with it, but that hit hits home maybe even more than the auto-gynophilia. And that is just. Admiring the other gender so much, IE women, that

Lexi Hudson (01:03:47.971)
Sure.

Lexi Hudson (01:04:08.781)
Sure.

Maddie Taylor (01:04:09.758)
you want to emulate them and maybe even kind of want some of the power that they have with society. because, you know, I'll look at women, you know, in boy mode. And a lot of times I look at them and go, I want to look like that. I want to be like that instead of be with them, which of course I wouldn't mind that either. But you know what I'm saying? Can you identify with that? The gender envy?

Lexi Hudson (01:04:12.109)
Ha

Lexi Hudson (01:04:29.739)
Yeah, yeah, sure.

Yeah, absolutely, absolutely, absolutely. So the different lanes, if you will, the autogonophilia thing, I feel for me, like probably in the earlier days, but in for lack of a better way of putting it, I feel personally that...

I've matured beyond that and like I'm really, you know, honing who I am, you know? And so it's grown beyond the simplicity of sexuality alone, you know? There are times and spaces that, you know, a piece of that is applicable or, you know, or, or, or,

Maddie Taylor (01:05:10.508)
That's a great way to put it.

That's a great way to put it.

Maddie Taylor (01:05:32.48)
It's always there, it's always there a little bit, yeah.

Lexi Hudson (01:05:35.551)
or can be, you know, in a sexual setting or whatever. But for me, like, that's not the drive for me, you know? The...

Lexi Hudson (01:05:53.219)
gender, there you go. Yeah, not dysphoric, the envy I would say, for what I like to do and really my style or choice of outfit type things or whatever crazy stuff I've put together.

Maddie Taylor (01:05:53.779)
gender-indie.

dysphoria

Maddie Taylor (01:06:09.931)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (01:06:18.72)
Well, it sounds like from your house and the way you keep your house and the way you... I could have guessed that without knowing you in boy mode. I could have guessed that you are well put together. Most of the time your house looks amazing. That's just how you present and that would be my guess. So I think it's amazing you've transferred that and have an outlet to express that stuff.

Lexi Hudson (01:06:29.091)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (01:06:47.072)
and we all appreciate it as well.

Lexi Hudson (01:06:47.683)
I try to be. I try to be. I always try to be a little extra.

Maddie Taylor (01:06:55.734)
Let me ask you, I got a couple more questions and we're gonna do the two truths and a lie. I see you've become very active with Wild Side. What's your role in the organization? I think it's amazing that you're putting your energy into that and I'm sure they love it. So what is your role with the organization?

Lexi Hudson (01:07:17.411)
So I'm extremely thankful to have been brought on board with those queen bees, Nikki, Gina, and Amy.

almost four years now with them. And I'm still not exactly quite sure of what I'm supposed to be doing, although they do consider me an important part of all conversations and thoughts, ideas. They welcome, yeah, even off cuff stuff.

Maddie Taylor (01:07:52.362)
evangelizing the event. You've done an amazing job at that.

Lexi Hudson (01:08:01.251)
So when Nikki first reached out, she was like, hey, would you be interested in coming on board and handling social media stuff? You write up some wordy and colorful and fun posts and stuff. And would you be interested in doing that? my god, absolutely. And then that sort of evolved.

with Wildside, but sort of outside of the event proper. Kim Reddick hosted, created and hosted the Hooters event. Kim had reached out to me that year and asked if I wanted to co-host Hooters with her going into that. Yes, absolutely. I have no idea what to do. Just tell me what to do. So we had gone into that and yeah, so over time, they've...

Maddie Taylor (01:08:54.07)
That's awesome.

Lexi Hudson (01:09:02.379)
they've let me sort of take the reins on wild sides, big sister, little sister program, which is hugely important to me personally. that's a, that's a, a vehicle for, seasoned veterans to, you know, sort of hop on board and advise, newcomers newcomers, meaning

Maybe this is your first time out the front door ever and you're coming to Wild Side and you're gonna be there for a couple days, few days, whatever, but this is your very first time out the front door ever. Or maybe it's just your first time to Wild Side or traveling to Las Vegas and all the intricacies that all of that intertwines. Like there's so much, there's an endless amount of knowledge that we should all capture.

Maddie Taylor (01:09:58.146)
Yes, and to have a liaison and a chaperone is worth its weight in gold for those newbies.

Lexi Hudson (01:10:02.241)
Yeah, and,

Yeah, and they gave me the latitude to sort of build it how I wanted to build it and I was like, you know, like naturally, you know, out of the gate, I first assumed that I should be connecting people. Like I'm a newbie, you know, I'm a little sister, you, Maddie, are a big sister this year and...

But I also thought about having recently been a new kid around there. What if you and I have just different goals for our vacation? It's my vacation, it's also your vacation. And if I connected you and I, if someone connected you and I, maybe you're a late riser and a party all nighter. Maybe I'm up in the morning to go get a coffee and take a little walk and go.

Maddie Taylor (01:10:48.322)
Sure.

Lexi Hudson (01:11:03.989)
on a little shopping trip and have dinner and maybe go to a show and be in bed by 10 o'clock. That's two very, that's two very fun trips, but that's two very different trips. And I didn't, I didn't like the idea of connecting people in case there were personality differences or goal differences for people's vacation.

Maddie Taylor (01:11:22.922)
Yeah, you can introduce them. would say, I would say if you're going to do that, introduce them as you're out and about with the group and just make sure you introduce them to people and let them, let them gravitate to, where they bond with.

Lexi Hudson (01:11:30.911)
Absolutely. And yeah, and people will connect organically, you know, and if you and I are both party all-nighters, hell yeah, let's go burn the town down, you know, kind of deal. So I've sort of gone into it with that. Yeah, yeah, for sure. So, but it's been great. They've also, you know, included me in a couple other things.

Maddie Taylor (01:11:40.95)
Yeah.

Maddie Taylor (01:11:47.478)
But it's that first introduction that's a tough one.

Lexi Hudson (01:12:00.475)
become one of the party bus monitors now, which has been great. Cosmopolitan night. Hosting or co-hosting. Yeah, that's prom night. That's the night that first introduced me to the event. headed down to the sign for the picture and stuff. yeah.

Maddie Taylor (01:12:08.13)
highlight of the event, in my opinion.

Maddie Taylor (01:12:13.836)
snake, the snake, yeah, the snake through the Cosmopolitan.

Maddie Taylor (01:12:20.861)
That's awesome.

Maddie Taylor (01:12:25.174)
Hey Lexi, let me ask you, if you could change one thing in your life, what would it be? You could wave a magic wand and change one thing in your life. What would that be?

Lexi Hudson (01:12:39.276)
in Lexi's world.

hair and makeup. Getting ready is such a beat down.

Maddie Taylor (01:12:54.208)
How long does it take you to get ready?

Lexi Hudson (01:12:59.491)
So we have to prepare the canvas, right? So shaving and tweezing and this and that and all of the things just to start with, call it a blank canvas, which I'm slow and methodical and meticulous. I try to be makeup wise or whatever. It takes about three hours. It takes about three hours.

Maddie Taylor (01:13:13.366)
Mm-hmm.

Maddie Taylor (01:13:22.719)
It shows. It shows.

Lexi Hudson (01:13:28.995)
And you know, yeah, yeah. And like, like that's me at home getting ready to go out tonight or a smaller caliber. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, there you go.

Maddie Taylor (01:13:29.098)
Yeah, that's a big commitment.

Maddie Taylor (01:13:37.76)
And take and taking your time and. You could probably compress that if you had to, but you take your time. You get a glass of wine or a drink or whatever and you put some music on. Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (01:13:49.183)
Exactly. That's the exact setting that I'm in. A peaceful, uninterrupted, blah, blah. Maybe having a friend on speakerphone and we're just cackling and sort of chatting through our day as I'm multitasking while I'm getting ready or whatever. During events, I've learned time is of the essence and something earlier on that I never thought I would do.

is sit in someone's chair for a makeover. The first year that I hosted the pool party at Wild Side, the pool party starts at noon, you know, and the night before, we're probably gonna be out till about the sun comes up. Yeah, that's just how days go, you know, during all that stuff. And I was mindful that like, I had never had a makeover before, but it would...

Maddie Taylor (01:14:41.067)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (01:14:48.355)
probably behoove me to pony up for one and, you know, sit in someone's chair at nine, 10 o'clock in the morning and let somebody take that work away from me, you know, and all I have to do is sit there and try to recover. And from that moment on...

Lexi Hudson (01:15:11.233)
sitting in someone's chair and having them do your makeup is quite profound. Yeah. That one specifically.

Maddie Taylor (01:15:16.724)
It is really a treat. Yeah.

Lexi Hudson (01:15:26.433)
I was sitting in the chair and whatever and we're done. And he spun me towards the mirror for the first time as he's pulling my hair on. And I absolutely it. I'm sitting there crying in the mirror, you know? And he's like, my God, like it's not okay. And I was like, no, no, love it.

Maddie Taylor (01:15:43.33)
you

Maddie Taylor (01:15:51.084)
Can't do that, your makeup's gonna run.

Lexi Hudson (01:15:55.521)
So like it was a running joke, know, and he and I still work together occasionally as do I and Jody Lynn, our friend and resident makeup artist for Wild Side from London. know, like every time I can't look in the mirror at their work and not tear up. It's good tears, but it's, yeah, it's, you know.

Maddie Taylor (01:16:22.636)
Sure.

Lexi Hudson (01:16:25.859)
years beyond my abilities or skills or any of that. And one of them, the guy that I use, one of our friends, he's always done my crazy ones. I did La Catrina for Day of the Dead during Wild Side of October of 21, the candy skull face. And it was fascinating. I had this idea in my brain.

Maddie Taylor (01:16:49.398)
Mm-hmm.

Yep, yep.

Lexi Hudson (01:16:55.873)
and I'm sending him these pictures and all this stuff and trying to, you know, describe what's, what's the thoughts going on in my brain. And he was like, have a seat, sweetie. And like, now the work happens, you know, all this stuff. My Marilyn Monroe tribute shoot that I got to do in West Hollywood, this time last year, that's a very unique look, especially for me and my features or lack of features, you know.

But working with a makeup artist and their tools and skills and the way their brains work, they're true artists. if you've never worked with a makeup artist, treat yourself and do it once. It's invaluable. It's invaluable. I fully support that.

Maddie Taylor (01:17:36.236)
Yeah, it's an amazing experience.

Maddie Taylor (01:17:49.854)
I agree. agree. Well, let's let's get to our segment called two truths and a lie. And this is where Lexi is going to make three statements. And two of them are going to be true statements. One of them is going to be a lie and not necessarily in that order. Anybody who can email me at Maddie at sometimes.

Lexi Hudson (01:17:56.023)
Thank

Lexi Hudson (01:18:01.539)
you

Lexi Hudson (01:18:10.915)
you

Maddie Taylor (01:18:18.206)
MaddieSometimes at gmail.com. That's maddysometimes at gmail.com. Email me the correct answer, which would be the lie. And you will win a free My Girl Life tank top. So with that being said, let's see. Give us two truths and a lie. And again, not in that order.

Lexi Hudson (01:18:19.299)
and

Lexi Hudson (01:18:23.811)
Ahem.

Lexi Hudson (01:18:33.763)
you

Lexi Hudson (01:18:39.299)
Sure, All right. Number one, my last name, my chosen last name.

Kate Hudson, the actress, is one of my favorite all-time actresses and because of my love for her, I chose to take on her last name for myself. Number two.

Lexi Hudson (01:19:08.023)
When Lexi truly came to fruition, I had decided to let her take up a lot of space in my everyday world. And I custom built my closet myself specifically to accommodate all of Lexi's crazy stuff. Number three, that signature AMF drink that we drink out in Las Vegas and at this point everywhere around the country, the little blue one.

was adopted into our small friend group at the El Cortez Casino during Wildside, May of 2019.

Lexi Hudson (01:19:48.727)
And that's a wrap.

Maddie Taylor (01:19:51.564)
There you go. So your chosen last name was after Kate Hudson. Your custom built closet was built just for Lexi's stuff. And the blue drink was invented at Wildside.

Lexi Hudson (01:19:59.405)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (01:20:05.943)
Mm-hmm.

Lexi Hudson (01:20:09.443)
was born at the El Cortez Hotel at Wildside 2019.

Maddie Taylor (01:20:14.602)
at the El Cortez Hotel. There you have it. So anybody can email me the lie, the one lie there to maddysometimesatgmail.com. We want a free My Girl Life tank top. Well, Alexi, this has been an amazing conversation and I really appreciate you taking time to share part of your journey with us. We look forward to hearing more stories and we will see you at some of these events and online.

So thank you again.

Lexi Hudson (01:20:45.187)
I've enjoyed it so much, Matty. again, I greatly appreciate our conversation today and you allowing me to be a part of what you're doing here, which is excellent and also invaluable for others like us in our community. if any of these talks, chats, interviews, laughs, and they will, but if they help.

one person that feels alone in the world, then they've absolutely served their purpose. continue to wish you well with your venture. And again, I just, I appreciate this. And also thank you for introducing me to Wild Side. And look forward to seeing you soon, sweetie.

Maddie Taylor (01:21:34.518)
You're very welcome. I'm glad I played that role. I did not know I was playing, but I'm glad I did and the community is glad for it. So thanks again. I appreciate it, Lexi.

Lexi Hudson (01:21:40.945)
Hahaha!

Thank you so much.